Bai Guizhi and her mother
I am Bai Guizhi, and was born in Huadian City, Jilin Province in 1965. Both of my parents worked in Hongshi Forestry Bureau. They were really proud of me since I had been an excellent girl. They loved me very much. Nonetheless, our happy family and my wonderful life were almost ruined by Falun Gong.
I came into contact with Falun Gong by chance in 1995. At that time, a co-worker of mine recommended Falun Gong to me. She painted a fantastic picture of it, but I did not take what she said seriously. One day at the end of 1997, my sister-in-law called on us. When she was about to leave, she took out a book and said to me seriously, “Guizhi, I suggest you read this book. It is really good. You see, I no longer quarrel with your elder brother since I read this book. This is the best proof of it. ” After my sister-in-law left, I opened this book Zhuan Falun and read it carefully. I was pleasantly surprised with Falun Gong’s central tenets of truthfulness, compassion and forbearance, all of which were what I had been seeking for. What a wonderful world that the book presented to us! When I finished the book, I was deeply attracted by Li Hongzhi and got involved with the beautiful world promised by Falun Gong so much that I was unable to extricate myself.
Since I began to practice Falun Gong, I have changed a lot. I concentrated my attention on Falun Gong, while neglecting my husband and our kid. Being worried about my obsession with Falun Gong, my husband said to me, “Sweetheart, please don’t practice Falun Gong anymore. It is not a good thing. I think it is an evil cult. Take a look at yourself. You are a different person now. You do not care for our family or our kid. Falun Gong is the only thing in your life. If you go on in this way, our family will be ruined.” But I turned a deaf ear to his earnest advice. Instead, I felt that he was so worldly that he knew nothing about the good of Falun Dafa. As a result, I often quarreled with him. Out kid was then too young to understand what made his parents who had always been affectionate quarrel so frequently. He could do nothing but cry in a corner. My son’s tear-stained face sometimes made me feel guilty. But such feeling was soon replaced by my eagerness for Falun Gong. I believed that my practice could bring benefit to my son because my master had told us that the whole family would benefit from Falun Gong as long as there was one practitioner in the family. So I made up my mind to keep on practicing. Since I had been striving for “progress”, I was appointed to head the group of practitioners in Huadian City. During that period, I was occupied by Falun Gong, while neglecting other things including the housework.
In July 1999, Falun Gong was outlawed by the government. But I could not accept the fact. I did not know what was wrong with Falun Gong that was intended to save people. Since Falun Gong was not allowed in public, we secretly practiced it and held secret group practice. In December 2000, I took thousands of yuan out of our income without telling my husband, and went to Beijing alone to publicize Falun Gong on the Tian’anmen Square. I did not know until I came back home that my husband was badly ill because he was so worried about me when he found my leave that he hurried to Beijing to look for me, only to find nothing. But I was not moved by his behaviors. Instead, I attributed his illness to his refusal to practice Falun Dafa. I felt it impossible to talk with such a worldly person as him. But my husband did not give up. He repeatedly tried to stop me from Falun Gong. Once he even begged me on his knees, “Sweetie, please stop. Let’s cherish our happy life.” In my memory, my husband was an unyielding man who had never knelt down. At that time, my son was also crying. But I was quite unmoved by my husband’s request and my son’s tear. I cared for nothing except Dafa and my master.
As a matter of fact, I had wavered sometimes. But the vacillation vanished soon. I attributed it to my “worldliness”. Being disappointed with me, my husband left me with our kid. Our family was nearly torn apart. Nevertheless, I insisted that I practiced Falun Gong for the purpose of saving my husband and son, which was beyond their understanding.
In the fall of 2011, a former fellow practitioner Shao Ling, whom I had branded as “viciously enlightened” for she had already given up Falun Gong, came to visit me. She explained why Falun Gong was harmful, and analyzed the changes that Falun Gong brought to my family. She said, “It does not matter whether you accept my advice. But you’d better think three things over: the first is whether Li Hongzhi collected money; the second is whether Li Hongzhi is a Buddha; and the last is whether Falun Gong brought benefit to your family.” Then she left.
Although I rejected her, I thought the questions over and over again. I felt that there was something wrong. But I did not dare to doubt my master. Afterwards, Shao Ling often came to visit me. By presenting the facts and reasoning things out, she finally convinced me. I thought about the changes that took place in my family since I practiced Falun Gong. I eventually came to realize that I was deceived by Falun Gong, which had brought irreparable harms to my family and my son. By the end of 2011, I completely gave up Falun Gong.
Now I am enjoying a happy family again.
